The Luckiest

 

Chase's alarm went off at 7:30 this morning. He snoozed once before getting up. We could hear Elsie, who was already awake and playing in her room. I rolled out of bed to get Chase's lunch together and make him a quick breakfast before he left for the day.
While I was buttering french toast, this feeling of guilt ran through me. Like a knot in my stomach almost. Chase is getting ready to leave and work for us all day long. And me, well I get to stay home, in my pajamas if i want to, and watch (play with) the kids. I'm not going to lie, being a stay at home mom is frustrating and hard, and some days I have to lock myself in the bathroom for a while just to escape.
But I am SO lucky.
We can climb into bed and watch a movie, walk to the park, or play with blocks. I get to make lunch and sing songs and potty train. I can't even imagine having to put my kids in daycare, or have them babysat all day 5 times a week. I know there are tons of families that do it, and it works for them. But I am just so grateful that I don't have to.
I am so grateful for Chase. He is the best husband I could ever ask for. He goes to work everyday so I can stay home with the kids. He never complains. Ever.
I am also blessed to have the opportunity to work from home for Designer Blogs. Because I want to. I get to be creative and productive during nap time. It's like a quick recharge before the hooligans wake up and were back to making cookies in Elsie's play kitchen.
Everyday is all about these kiddos and I am so glad I get to stay home and be the one helping make memories of their childhood.