Comparison: the thief of joy

Multiple times throughout the day you will find me checking my phone. Making sure I didn't miss any emails from one of my clients, finally texting someone back that asked me a questions hours before, or browsing social media and seeing what the rest of the world is up to. I see all these gorgeous pictures taken by friends, family and even some people I have never met before. One person is at the beach, another is out shopping with a friend. Every picture seems perfect. Perfect outfits, perfect smile, perfect healthy salad for lunch.

I find myself looking down at my sweat pants and mismatched socks, then over to my baby girl still in her pajamas at 1PM. She's walking through the house eating a roll she got from who knows where, leaving a trail of crumbs behind her. 

I sigh and then open pinterest... cause that will make me feel better. My favorite thing to look through is the home decor. All these beautiful homes with huge kitchens and walk in showers with 17 different shower heads for all your washing needs. Now don't get me wrong, I LOVE my little 1940s home. It's so cozy with its original wood floors and we don't really need anything bigger right now. But when I see all these amazing, and freaking expensive, houses, I always say 'someday Ill have a kitchen like this', or 'one day Ill have a laundry room with cupboard space and a sink'.

But yesterday I realized WHAT'S THE POINT?!

I don't need ideas for remodeling, thats already done. I have a couch and curtains and pillows and more pictures and art than my walls can handle. So why do I keep returning to this site where I save image after image of houses I'll maybe have one day? Or outfit after outfit that I want to buy? This website literally makes you un-content with the things you have. Well at least that's how it is for me.

I am constantly comparing my life to those I see on social media and pinterest. Saying I wish my bedroom was more like that. Always wishing I had those shoes or that scarf. Even silly things like wishing I could pull off a hat the way that chick can... ITS SO SILLY.

Ultimately no good comes from my times spent gawking at everyone else's perfect life. I just feel unsatisfied and ungrateful. So not attractive you guys.

SO I've decided I don't need it. I'm not going to delete my facebook or instagram. And yes Im sure I will be on pinterest every now and again. Shoot if you ever want to know about anything on the earth... pinterest has your answer. Its practically the new google. But I've decided to spend my time enjoying what I do have and being more grateful for my life. However un-perfect it is.

I wouldn't trade it for anything.

Besides you don't get much better than this...