Sugar and Spice

I am going to have a baby girl in less than 4 months. The other night the realization and responsibility of that hit me like a ton of bricks. I am going to be a mother and I am going to be responsible for raising this little person. I don't want to just teach her right from wrong, I want her to be strong and independent. I want her to grow up with pride and self-confidence; two things I didn't gain until I was a junior in high school. I want her to be a lady, but not be afraid to get dirty and have fun. She needs to be loving and kind but be willing to stand up for herself and others. 

It is crazy to think that one day this little girl will get her heart broken, she will be made fun of and laughed at. Girls can be so cruel. She will be left out and hurt by those she believes are her closest friends. My heart aches to think of all these things that she will go through. I wish I could snap my fingers and everything would be easy peasy for her. But it cannot work that way. She has to have these experiences to learn. She needs to have her feelings hurt so she can be more sensitive to the feelings of those around her. These terrible things will help to make her better.

I'm sure Chase and I will make a million mistakes. This is our first time being parents. 

I just pray that what we teach her, through our words and examples, help to prepare her 

and shape her into the lovely person that I feel she is.

i love you already little bean